Sheena AkA Naz
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hihix *grinx* it was rainin tis whole morn 2day...brrr...cold day. Just feels so rite to snuggle under my blanky n hug me cushy n slp. Heex. But tt wasn't e case worz. Went to perform at e BE buildin bridge thingy n reached sch by 10am tis morn. Was supposed to play 5 songs, 4 ensemble pieces n our quartet piece by kel, mic, jer n me. End up we left out Andrecchio cos no time...n it was quite diaox cos it was e most anticipated song of e day..lolx. Penelope performance (e quartet) was betta than aust trip wan, but we still made a few mistakes here n dere..hee..bt doesn't matter. i was ok wif it. We IMPROVED. ;) And cos we din gt 2 perform Andrecchio, we played it backstage. Ha...

Aft tt slack in clubhse 4 awhile, tried out a few weird pieces..den i head hm le. Was v tired n i need to do my stuffs. Den i overslpt for both 3 buses...so unlike me. Ha. I took 151, den missed my stop by 2 stops aft, den took 8, missed my hm by 4 stops, den took a return bus 21 back, and still can miss by 1 stop. Aiyoz. =x Den went hm, mimi frenz here, i dun care, jus peng on bed aft bathin..

Got awaken by dad to go haf dinner at East Coast Lagoon dere...n i took quite a while to get up, haha..dad woke me up frm my bed, so i went to slp in living rm, den to my sis rm..keke..finally went to eat n yupz..full stomach now. *burpz*

Anyway, i really hav gt to thx all e zooies of M02 ritex? Prepared a BBQ 4 us so last min when u all were so tired le. Wad happen was we had sch till 1. Den i went away wif yaz to do my SAg stuff n jess n bunch went over to jess hse le. N aft i dealt wif my stuff, went back to sch to get my cert, i cabbed wif tiff n bunch 2 jess plc too. reached dere nt long, den went down set up pit. Cos we were near e poolside so i jus flop at e recliners n doze off..den when its ready they called me up. Oppz. :) BBq-ed awhile n Dr. Lim + elder son n Ms. Ong arrived. Entertained dem 4 awhile..chit chat..n e M02 gals sneaked up n brought down a cushy signed off by them wif perosonal msges n a brownie cake..keke...was taken aback by e cushy n cake tho'. ha...was tinking where on earth they got time to bake a brownie..hehe. Its e 3rd cushy i gt frm frens le..*hugz* luv it guys! can hug everywhere i go. Hee..

I blew e candle wif Dr.Lim's son n we tried cutting e brownie but it was....a..lil'...HARD...cant push e knife down. Haha. And when i least expect it, jess came over, hug me n pulled me down while jer smudge e brownie on me face. dumb dumb. As i said e brownie was HARD rite? So it was lyk..ehz....smudgin my face wif it n it nv stick? e fact tt some stick was cos they added spicy CHILLY sauce n honey n wadever. Jess can still push e brownie all e way into my mouth n happy mic took pics of my pathetic state! My god, *shakes head*, y is my cowy family lyk tt...mic e dad can snap fotos of me while my nuer is e 1 tt stuff me wif browie..*shakes head ever HARDER*. Haha.. i puke e tink out aft e CUTE foto-taking session wif still a burning sensation of chili sauce on my lipz..>.<

Oh, Mrs tang came aft n chatted be4 rushing 4 church meetin. And we grumbled abt AMB lectuerer...hehe. Aft, we jus sorta crapped till abt 11 den left jess hm. Shared cab wif HY, jer n tiff. Keke.

All in all, luv all e efforts n preparation kkz? Muackz! Thx jess, mic, tiff, jer, kel, yaz, JY, HY 4 e small celebration but of cos, those of u who made e effort to realli prepare tis tink (u n i noe who u ALL are, BIG hugz frm naz me *HUGZ*) ;)

to jess: i noe u were having fever n was lyk realli sick tt day but u hang on cos u dun wanna spoil it. N ur efforts cud nv hav been erased kkz? take care n drink lotsa H20 kkz? Luv ya!

to all zooies: of cos i nv forgotten u all lar, dun fall sick too kz? weather here getting kinda weird n crazy so take care too. Jia you 4 everytink we do! appreciate everytink u all did. *signing it on me cowy's heart so its remb'ed* keke..

Hmmz. Aft all tt fun, loads to rush. Immuno n AMB pro to rush n MST to do. Performance on e way n preparation for SAg to crack brains. i must hang on. I try. tml gonna meet pal to return fone to her. And maybe meet up for lunchy i duno. Needa spare some tots on tuts yeah..lolx..stop here now..feel lyk slping again.

yoz yoz...hw R u peeps doin?

as i've mentioned, i went 4 e wad Student's leader seminar..dumb dumb...went to a RESORT for SERIOUS toks but they included so many LAME games..lolx...cant use the facilities man...cos no time...aww...if onli more pple i noe were there...heex... My table or so called group onli had 2 gals, tiff n me...>.<...den all so lame...haha..not too bad lar...=P

den these few days been really busy wif coming out wif the FINAL budget proposal for the PP...and YESH YESH YESH YESH YESH! He agreed!!!! that Ian agreed! said tt we dun even need to look for sponsors!!! *flipz* and sch will pay full! *rolls* Now onli wait for head director to sign for approval *salutex* keke...

E final venue and date is LT 26 of our sch, end of march starting of april like tt...if successful so all must come support kkz? really must!!! *begz*...hha....cos its realli v v v v v impt..heh.... den these few days been goin down to sdar to decide venues..book venues...even the sdar pple help me kan jiong..haha..cos they scare my proposal not approve...comical..haha...

Nw is the brain-bogglin part..hafta come up wif plans up till next yr march to clearly show phases and stages of working process...and tis is onli for PP...wah...die le...haha...stressfull......

Anyway, i got back Immuno and MSTII le..expected poor results...Immuno 69%...MSTII 77%...dumb...i got my first C grade in poly...and it sux...sorry if u tink tt its no big deal but its quite irritating for me...cos my mum will nag...so i decided to keep quiet abt it..haha...

honestly, i tink i scored according to hw much effort i put in. Haiz..but its quite saddening cos i obtain C...wanna pull everytink to be At least a B..best A...but now its like hard...extremely hard..ee....2 more papers to reveal grades..and i dun haf extra nice feelin abt it..but i guess it realli shows tt i reap wad i sow..and i certainly din reap well..lolx..nvm...i shall try harder the next time if i can..ha...

frenz and classmates ard dun believe i can get such marks...some even tease me den snatch paper see, den saw my marks..den shock..den diam...den apologise..haha...it doesn't matter..feelin sux to score bad (according to individual aims la) ..but if its our own fault or wad den bo bian lor *smilin' sheepishly*..haha..

tis few days getting bz sia..fri go for "be my own boss" tok...that clashes wif the prize collection tink..den got gathering...Sat got BE performance. next fri performance too..den next sat is welcoming party..woah..xiong..tt excludes training somemore. flopz!

as for tml, goin to SP collect sth. And abt 5-7 got the forum to attend in sch, and 7 onward have guitar pract..haha..must go tml..cos fri not free..haha....i tink..lolx..

ok lar..update alone so long le..stop here 1st...blog shorter and more of my tots when i blog next time! ciaoz!

"i wan u here"

ok...its high time for all e sad n bad stuff to be over.

Common Test has ended. i tink i cleared up e lil misunderstanding.

2day was an average day i must say. But somethings cheered me up along e way. Morn i met shiya to pei me do my admin stuff..den aft met jess, tiff and clique sit ard big round table haf lunch.. since yest alr din hav mood to study AMB tt hopeless module..haha..oh to digress abit, yest i watched 3pm taiwan show, den 6pm korean show, 8.30superstar, 10pm police show, and 11.30 results for superstar. Den my mum ask me," u no test alr arh" haha...tv is evil evil evil..haha.anyway, went to take test at 1.30..

wah..so funny, no seating plan, den no rules and regulation wan, pple slowly stroll in, den 'cher giv whoever tt dun hav paper..den we can jus flip and browse the paper whill still talking! haha.._ _lll But i nv study lar.so tio stun...duno how to do..it was a 2hr paper, i finished it in abt 50min..den left 2 qns blank..confirm 20m lyk tt gone case..hah... Den i linger on awhile more den i go off early le..

den went to SDAR, cos ian wan pass me some guitar chord for e seminar tink tml..den also wan to talk to me in person for e proposal for PP for SAG...den i tot onli for 10min he CLAIMED..but it took 1hr+....DOTs...nvm...cos aft tt i was quite happy tho' i puked blood inside alr...he finally agree tt my proposal might be do-a-ble...altho i hafta revise the budget, but he promised me tt if i amend it and the director approve it, he will help me get thru tis performance even if its confirm a no-profit-but-lost performance.

i tink i realized abt him, he really kan ren jiang hua wan. Last time he was so cocky and stuff when i was a nobody in his eyes. Now aft i did my job for mths..sloggin lyk shit, and trying to build up e trust of SAG n reliablity in him, finally he's ABIT, n i onli said ABIT more frenly to me..sian DIAOz..haha...but tt's a good start lar..at least i no need to di sheng xia qi tok to him.

Den was so sorry to JJ cos i promised i will be done n meet by 4+, bt i was still in e office at 4+! And he ended at 2+ n he was sick...shit..haha.. when i reached was lyk abt 5 n he was lyk collasping at a corner of bugis..haha..den meet le force me go eat..=.=..dumb...den see i so "mouldy" den go arcade..lame...play shooting games..den e duno wad san guo yan yi game...and a stupid game..made me luff all e way so nt too bad..haha.was inside for quite long. N we played a new game, den i din wan play so jus nice some gal's bf tagged wif him, den they play, den tt guy tot we play be4, den we realized all new birds..hah..so tried out game tgr..den aft i help tt guy..den e gf lyk so diam..but anyway we jus crapped..den they went off..den i cont game..muahaha..i finished e mission! haha...

Den aft jus walk walk...bought HARRY POTTER! MUAHAHA...finally...den i jus say go watch show..den JJ so enthu...den check check check...lamez..but end up i said dun wan cos dun wan reach hm late tonite cos everytime go out wif him den reach lyk so late...lol...den he bo bian..haha.den we go cold storage buy his drink cos he coughing lyk mad...abit irritating..haha..den go buy alex's card..and walk awhile more, den we took mrt to eunos le...muahaha..made him sacrifice his north-east route VOLUNTEERILY..haha..den yup..reached hm...slacked..till now..haha..

Going to M'sia for e seminar for 2days..hope it wun be darn boring cos its talk talk and more talk...at a RESORT...Hmmz...i wonder....hahaha..toopid...ok lar..tt's all for now..tc..

ok...now its my turn to make a public apology...sheeshz...

i din expect u all to haf such gr8 rxns u noe. i was jus stating a v light eg cos u all noe each other so u can jus understand wad i meant better. But i guess it turned out e wrong way. Anyway, its not abt u all. I trust u all. I mean..i've got to rite? We've spent lyk a yr being classmates tgr u tink jealousy or wad will get to me? Nopez...(by e way, i m not ahem...whoever noes hu tt person i m tinking abt..den shh....i dun wanna sin..keke)

And i noe tt everyone has diff. goals...diff way of doin tinks and expressing themselves..of cos for mic, tiffy and jess, i noe u all really was having a hard time too...who isn't rite? keke.. Jus try ur best and u've got nth to regret...i'll b supporting u all all e way kkz...sorry if i hav hurt any1 of u.....me words maybe a lil' too harsh...*smackz me self* haiz...so stupid of me..shld've jus used my fren la..cos its him tt made me so annoyed... @!$#% ...nvm.. hope i m forgiven..='(

Abt me self-discipline..HAH...big joke..i dun really haf either...i usually dun haf it..i onli use late nites to repay my debts...haha...everytime i got so many deadlines and i nv do..i heck...but when i noe tt i HAVE to do it..i jus try to stay up thru the nite, even if i doze of so many times, i will still try nt to slp..cos guilt got the better of me..is tt...eh...self-abuse? hmms..haha

pPle dream big dreams...i dun...haha...n actually, my reason is v simple...but i wun say it out...haha....remb its MY moltivation? haha...no larr..i m not that selfish..jus tt i dun wanna make pple worry...i jus...dun wan sth to happen to me even be4 i can fulfil some tinks i need to do...hmms...jus dun wan my bad feeling to come true...lolx..who noes wad i m in for when i m nt healthy..sheesh...lemme see...i tink i shld spend my time researching for Polygenic(Multifactorial) inheritence..maybe i can help myself and whoever next time! haha...lamez..

Anyway, i last paper to go for now..hope every1's mood is feelin much lighter now...we shall pass our CT...haha..

Haiz, actually seeing tt u all lyk so shocked wif wad i'd said and it wasn't meant to be interpreted tt way, i jus feel sick..lolz....

k, shall jus end here...ciaoz

Mic, jess, tiffy: SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY...i dun mean to...will always be there for u all when ya all need me..sorri guys if i made u all angry or wad...guess it shows tt i m not good at words...shld jus keep my mouth shut and fingers away. =(

harlowz harlowz harlowz..

Ahem, 1st of all, i'd lyk to thank all u peeps for remembering moi b'day...and i mean ALL of u. =P Thx fish n kel 4 e pressie, thx for wrapping wif so many layers...so kind of u, make me black when i finally open up all...lolx...^^ and its so amusing, kinda got so many pple remb' my b'day...even pple whom i lost their numbers msged or called me...woah..haha..Oh, den must also thx JF for meeting me downstairs jus to pass me a cake..haha..was lyk nt in contact for so long le cos we both bz..den suddenly i jus receive a fone call to go down stairs and meet. LOLx...den reach le still wanna hide e cake..ehz..-_-lll But finally i blew out my candles n stuff and we chatted so long..lolx..

Sorry if u might find wadever below tis line a lil' boring...cos its some of my tots.

Kinda weird feelin 4 a b'day tis yr...weird time to hav a b'day...funny tt so many pple remb'...and feelin tt sth's still missing..lolz...nvm abt tt...sis, sec sch pals n a few still owe me my pressie cos i no time go get frm dem. haha...actually, i dun realli expect anytink from anyone, dun even expect pple to remb...i jus wanna make sure i remb' pple's b'day tt's all..haha..i m weird too..cos i m nt sum1 who luvs big birthday bash or sth lyk tt..prefer nice quality time wif certain pple tt's all...lolz..

Anyway, jus now read jess's blog..was thinking to myself, why everyone wans to grow up...lyk so many pple ard me said, they wished tt they can jus grow up...stop e hassle we are goin thru now..but y nt if we really wanna wish, wish tt we can nv grow up? i miss tt sorta pure innocence days tt i'd had in those days. Studies n goals weren't in my mind...all i wished for during tt time was to be able to be wif my family..loved ones...meet my best pals everyday in sch to slack..go buy erasers and play rubber game...bball...slides...and stuff lyk tt.. with nt any backstabbing, scheming pple, social climbers ard me.

we too, always feel tt pple ard us haf changed, but when hav we really sat down to reflect whether its US that have changed. It might be our stronger character that has emerged, or might hav been so many other reasons...tink abt it...sometimes we dun jus blame the situation we are in or the pple who are involved. Try tinking of y in the 1st place we R stuck in tt situation..haha..

It seems lyk i tink a lil' too much, but i realized tt i m 19 le..gonna hit the digit "2" next yr...tho' i m still gonna be young compared to aunties or uncles, i noe tt i cant be as immature as i used to be. i needa be responsible for my actions and stuff lyk tt. For eg, altho i really really dislike SDAR and all the admin work tt i hav to do, i really learnt alot...from all these...i get to see the true meaning that we really needa tink of cause and effects on certain stuffs cos wad we do might cause many probs to others ...there's the preceding effects on many stuffs in life so we really gotta get serious sometimes. I noe tt i miss the smell n feeling of jus being carefree and not restricted in my area. But i noe tt i need to learn and taste wad i m tasting now someway or another. So jus take it as a training course for me den.

As i haf always noe, we gain sth, we lose sth. I get to lead such a "VIBRANT" sch life, being SO BUSY all e time, i lose time to be wif my pals..regardless whether its outside, or even in sch..i noe i hav been neglecting a whole lot of dem...realli SORRY..i will get my time management rite and spent time wif u all lyk hw i used to be and wan to be. U've got to noe tt me care abt my pals and loved ones more than anytink else in e world..aww...lolz..

last last last tink, also frm blog (realli no offence wan) tt i realized how some categorise pple being in the same boat. To some, being in the same boat means pple whom they clearly see that they are in the same situation, having the same surface probs, realli being in their shoes...den they feel tt they are in the same boat. But to me, it isn't as surface as tt. i m not saying anyone is shallow, everyone has their own stand and tis is hw i feel. haha.. to me, being in the same boat also means goin thru the same ordeal regardless hw much u can sense from us.

Jus to put my pt across better, take tis CT for eg...nu er tinks tt mic n tiff r in the same boat as her cos they r lyk scoring quite poorly when they wanna try hard. But wad abt all of us? We dun seem to be in e same plight as dem? U cant see it upfront doesn't mean tt this same prob doesn't exist for us. Ok, let's c, pple may tink tt we try and we score, so not as if we dun get returns..but honestly, who can really score without putting in more hard work? Do u tink its realli THAT easy for us to score too? The qn paper given to us are all the same...and it means 20% to every1 of us..do u tink tt we dun fear it? Its the 1st time tt i do these subs, same as u all, so its also e 1st trial for us.. ok, wad i m driving at is tt we r all in the same boat even if u cannot see it cos we dun show it. But try to understand tt i haf the same fears as u..i hav the same hopes as u....Apart from those nerds n geniuses...i dun see hw we can try to achieve stuff w/o putting in a reasonable amt of effort...tt's y i m stuggling now too..

And so, relating it to me...pple tink i m smart. No. i m not.
If i m smart, i'dnt hav failed ALL my subs in JC wif Fs on my report card.
If i m smart, i'd hav done wad i wanted to do all these while...
If i m smart, i'd haf probs even tryin to pass...

wad pple see on the surface is tt i score well..is tt even hw hard i put it, i still passed my previous modules...but wad happened in btw..do pple bother? do pple noe? Hw hard i tried to catch up..do they care? they onli see tt i passed and assume tt i m different. Like another of my fren, noe tt i having CT...but duno i realli din listen in class or sth..and i was v bz..den came to ask me hw was i doin, i said" modules v hard, i haven been listening, duno can catch up anot." he said " u so pro, can wan lar." HELLO...i m NT pro! Arghh..i jus try harder than pple...i jus need to score well...many of u duno why.....realli duno why.....i nv told any1...

In short, sometimes we cannot determine and conclude tinks rashly or jus at THE moment for many situations, we needa really try to understand how pple ard us are doin as well. Jess tis is jus an eg tt i take to narrate kkz...dun take it personal...i m jus saying in general...muackz...

sorri to bore u all..i shld be so happy when its my b'day so HAPPY B'DAY to me! haha...(",)

i m dead...
i m panicking VIRTUALLY(cos i m not walking ard my rm)..
i m sianed wif wad's coming up tml...
BUT...i m still not doin anytink...

haha...hw shld i put it..radio or cds been running on my hi-fi set since sat lyk all e time n work is nt done all these while..hah... e main use of e music is to keep me awake. i M awake BUT nt doin anytink...issit helping? Bleahx.

Tml's 1st paper..maths stats II..supposedly a module tt i can at least pass..but arh..i haven read thru..nor practised..gonna do tt later...lyk browse thru my notes..but i noe i can bang wall le..even simple integration qns i also mixed up my formulas n duno why e solutions ARE e solutions, get wad i m saying? lolx..

yest slp sooo much, den guilty, so plan to study at nite, den jess called to ask abt Immuno..den i agar tell her and repeat wad's ON the NOTEs..cos i cant remb..=X..den tok rubbish till 1am..den i told her to get back to work, but aft i put down fone, i read my stuff lyk for 10min, den i restless le..went to grab my 8-days and read..den aft awhile, i fell aslp..

woke up so late tis morn..had some food n cont my music listening but hav not been doin anytink...so dead...pple ard me dun believe i will slack lyk tt...lolx...shit..but i tink i m nt doin much le...lolx...hw sia...need sum1 to inject me wif a booster shot manz..haha...

i alr tot of wad i wanna do AFTER my CT...lol...fast rite?
M i suppose to tink abt enjoying alr?
No, but i jus DID...


HeLLoz DaRlInG FrI, U NoE I M wAitInG FoR U...hehe --> inSaNiTy RuLes Me =)

i sux...
i sux...
i sux...!!!

Dun tink tt i m stressed...i m not..jus feelin sucky cos i realli lack self-discipline...always wanna do sth...den say so much but din do...shuckz...

i will always tink to myself...can i turn back time? But e next min, i luff at my sillyness...haiz...

went to sch on both thur n fri to teAch my students OBC..gr8 tink is tt dey really listen to me...they were monkeys i heard..mostly guys in my class...were quite noisy when they were in e 1st 1/2 of my 1st lesson..den they quieten down aft tt...all thru to my last lesson i had wif dem on fri...i was amazed..e 'cher who sat in in my lesson was stun too...ha...

i realized y i din wan to follow my maternal n paternal side's pathway to enter MOE and join the teaching force alr...and also y i din wan to go for tuitioning....cos i realli hope my students can improve...i will put 200% or more...when it comes to helping others..lyk tis time..i agreed to taking on tis task..and i made an effort to teach. i was onli supposed to teach 1hr each time and i can walk out aft tt, not bothering abt dem lyk some peer tutors i noe of tt did jus tt..but i stayed back to teach..for lyk till nite..even on fone..or wad...n i m not paid for tt extra efforts..

their lecturer sat in..n she was shocked y i went thru topic by topic when i was onli asked to do last min revision for 1 hr..and they had lyk so many chaps...but i felt that they dun even noe anytink so no matter how many papers i go thru, they still wun get it...they need to understand...AND aft fri's final remedial...i was so glad...so glad...when i finally went thru past yr papers's qns..they can ans...almost in full...i was so relieved..really...i wan them to pass..i always had faith in dem tt they r not hopeless students..i noe they dun lyk to be e lowest in e cohort lyk how they did last time...i noe they can do it...i told dem to study..i patiently guided dem thru'out and they understood...hope they can do well for their CT too...told dem to msg me abt their progress..hehe..

So much abt them...was wondering if anyone can tutor me on my modules man..haiz..really feel so helpless..not i dun wanna study..but i realli cant conc n dun fully understand...lyk i read thru..den some1 can pop me a qn and i tio stun...lyk tt can consider got study? wth...den read alr..next min can forget de...haiz...

mon-maths stats 2
tue- immunology
wed-human genetics n diseases
fri-applied molecular biology

sux...life sux...i must keep my mind positive..life.........stil sux...arh....feelin so lost now..=( gotta pick myself up...

Hmmz...u all also din noe William Tan existence..shows hw much u all are into our home news...me too...sama sama...haha...i onli knew abt william hung den when i saw e AI auditions...lolx..

But here's sth abt him, he's Dr. William Tan..a disabled man who got polio i tink when he was a kid n is paralysed frm waist down. Cos of tt, he din get to lead life a life tt we led as a kid n gt scrutinised by pple all ard so he was damn demoralised alr. But 1 day his mum told him, " U can either cry n sympathise ur diablility or U can try to work tis out, do sth worthy n giv ur best. No 1 will blame u for any decisions u make as its ur life. U decide hw u wan it to be led." So, he decided to aim 4 e best sch den n to go forth to medical sch. He got into RI den to medical sch aft countless rejections by dem. Cos he did wadever it takes to reach his goals. Tt wasn't all, he decided to do sth charitable, so he aimed to do 7 marathons in 70days to break e guiness n for charity (cos guiness had a past record of 7 marathons in 99days) ..n 4 charity...he did it..n way passing it, 10 marathons in like less than 90 days or sth...even when his wheelchair took its toll n broke..even when his hands went into the wheels of the wheelchair n almost crippled him more.

He's been thru loads..n becos of his faith n tt 1 sentence tt spurred him on..he achieved all..got many medical certs..did e major charity challenge..n got acknowledged for his efforts..tt's a bit abt him...cool yeh? Funny thing ehz many disabled pple r starting to stand up but we tend to wan to giv up so easily when we r blocked in our paths..haha..

Back to MY life, everytink's like still a lil' stagnant i supposed...not much effort put in i must admit..lolx...tried abstaining from guitar and guess wad? TV is the root of all evil now...haha..got myself stuck to e tv tis study wk..haha...oppz..so much aft wad i say abt achieving goals i din do wad i preached. haha..but i WILL...its THUR tml..3-4days to common test..i will try to buck up..gambette! Must try...got v down when i cant seem to understand wad my notes are saying....i'll try...i need to PASS....try try try.......cannot giv up...haiz...argh.... and suddenly remb'ering my peer-students called me not long to "book" me tml...sianz..zi sheng nan bao...=X

How's revision every1? Jia youz kkz? Catty's CT tml sia...good luck...for us M02 pple...jia you jia you jia youz! And for everyone else, try ur best too kkz?

"Many pple in our lives can try to inspire us, but its up to us whether or not we wanna do sth abt our lives. We MAKE e decision factor."

Sorri i din blog.... Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri Sorri.. m i forgiven? keke..dun giv up on moi bloggy kkz? i will be guai again. keke.

i oso dun really noe where to update from le..2 long din update, lyk abit lose touch..=S jus say tinks tt i remb 4 nw kkz? keke...

some interestin tinks tt happen tis wk...
1) Huiyun pon AMB lect! --> when sum1 lyk her pon, it means we r not bad students aft all, muahaha

2) i went to peer-tutor yr 1s for ORGANIC BIO CHEM..yucks..and i gt myself in deep trouble cos i got difficulty explaining terms and stuff to den. i jus tried looking as COOL and CONFIDENT as i could n bluff my way thru. MUAHAHA. But arh, they still got alot to catch up lehz..dun tink they can make much improvement in jus 2 lessons. so i tutored a few of them like 3 hrs more aft my designated 1 hr. and i m goin to meet dem outside sch to guide...wah..so wei da! when i cant even cope wif my tis sem's work...>.<

3) Old mic won all of us in the wad game arh...duno wad puzzle fighters or wad...so pro lor..my god..and so sickening. noe wad's the best part? Aft EVERYONE cant beat him, we all AIM to SURVIVE on e game wif him as long as we cud! *pengz on floor* and me being ME, i onli survived for at most 15sec lor i tink! =x haha

4)Went to KAP tt day aft guitar practise and saw mic and jer look-a-like(s)! haha...made us all so amused. =P

Okie, apart from update e above, i wanna say....COMMON TEST is COMING!!!!! Arh!!! Exactly 7 days from now!!! That means....DUNG DUNG DUNG!!! Dun giv me e silly look nor e disbelief look or a smug or sth lyk tt cos i tink i gonna lose tis battle tis round. getting so demoralised.. when i m nt doin anytink, i always get a lil' pissed of myself. Always get the feeling of y i jus cant zheng qi yi dian...lyk there WAS time for me to slowly study n catch up wan, but i always will wait till i hafta race wif time den i gan yuan...for excitement maybe? Nah, i was nv really a risk-taker by nature, but i always put myself in such situations, regardless its studies or wad...diaoz..

aft blaming myself, i shld let others share ABIT of the blame rite? toopid amb, is realli an easy module i heardsay from many, but tt lim made it so hard...keep toking the nonsensical and not teach wad's needed, now aft like 8wks, i m still amazed tt i wasn't even filled wif a bit of info..thanx alot arh...i dun mean to be mean but he really cant teach. He's a nice tutor realli but he cant teach.

oh, can i whine on sth else be4 i end? pls pls pls? keke....the common test falls on my b'day lar! hrrrmmppz... *bitez* ok, done wif whining for tt. it doesn't matter. no big deal, jus another year. ha.

Life certainly ain't smooth-sailing nw but, as wad willian tan said, when we are met wif disablilities or obstacles, we always have 2 choices to choose from. 1, we can choose to dwell in our sorrowness, cry and do nth and let others sympathise wif u. or 2, choose to make the best out of e situation and be the best we can be. i m not referring to onli e common test, but i choose choice no. 2. Wad abt u?

"Opportunities dun go ard knocking on our doors like opportunities. Instead, opportunities appears to us as Problems."

"i noe tis may not be the best tink to do but i m doin wad i shld do. i m selfish i noe. Dun hesitate to do wad u tink u shld do."